The Realization of the Psychic.
The following essay is concerned about the realization
of the psychic. This can be seen in some cases as the
"awakening" to things "supernatural" which seem
inexplicable by "normal" understanding. What follows
does not pretend to be a comprehensive account of the
subject but offers a few insights. It is also an
excuse for the author to reveal some of his own
experiences. Explanations are offered as to their
meaning which may be largely correct, or otherwise.
Psychic Realizations, and Some Personal Experiences.
Psychic realizations is when people usually in
childhood have unusual experiences that seem
"inexplicable" such as invisible "playmates", seeing
auras,reading peoples characters, perceiving "spirit"
lights, and dead people, et al. Quite often, such
young persons may regard this as "normal" until they
are told otherwise. As the child gets older the
experiences may lessen, or usually vanish altogether
in adulthood. For some though this can lead to a
"career", or an intense interest in some "New Age", or
psychic movement/society.
More rarely, such psychic realizations can occur in
older people rather than in childhood. It might
involve someone going to a healer, and later
discovering that they, themselves have suddenly found
the power to heal others! Certain UFO sightings along
with alleged alien encounters can transform peoples
lives. They feel somehow re-charged, and may even gain
"temporary" psychic "powers" such as telepathy,and
healing. Near-Death Experiences too, or NDEs can have
a like influence on the individual. Ofcourse, this can
result with certain people deceiving themselves into
thinking that they do have psychic powers, and/or a
special mission in life.
Many ordinary folk have a story to say about some
"odd" happening in their lives. Yet, such an occurence
is often a one-off, and is soon forgot. However, such
experiences would have at least made it known to the
person concerned that life is far stranger than it
appears. In this respect, they have much worth, and
can lead onto the more important issues of spiritual
evolution. In other words, a stepping stone towards
higher things.
In the following, I (the author)have described some of
my own personal experiences. Short remarks are
included. Some of it may seem a little bizarre but it
must be made abundantly clear that I have never ever
taken illegal drugs, and/or psychiatric ones from a
doctor. It should also be stated here that most people
who may have had psychic experiences are quite often,
or not in good mental health.
However, it is my belief that my own experiences were
partly the outcome of birth trauma when I nearly died
from suffocation. Indeed, the horror of such an event
was "relived"in 1968 as a child as I was sleeping in
the back seat of my parents car. This occured in
Spain.
Apart from that, I think rightly, or wrongly that when
I retired the sleeping "unconcious" mind would on
occassion allow normally negative "buried" memories to
re-emerge in some form, or other. Yet, this could
include on occassion unusual phenomena initially
caused by the "re-enactment" of stiffling suffocation
of the birth trauma, and its concomittant subnormal
"subconcious" state of "being".This acted as a
"gateway" for certain lowly "attuned" forces to
interfere with my childhood. In other words, these
"forces" came from a sub-plane, or "world" where such
awareness exists as an interiorised, and exteriorised
energy "suitable" for "beings," and "things" at that
level. This may seem unorthodox to some, and as such
it is not our intention here to go into the more
"mainstream" ideas such as those of Freud, Jung,
Adler, or indeed, "re-birthing"..and the like.
This subnormal level of being below waking
conciousness was a feature of many of my early
experiences. It is my belief that the latter has been
responsible for a small amount of mental retardation
but nothing serious unlike those who for example have
cerebral palsy to a grave extent.
It must be clearly stated here though that many people
who have had such experiences in the main are in
excellent mental health be they child,or adult. This
must forever be bourne in mind especially the more
sceptical amongst us. Moreover, the birth experience,
and its degree of trauma (usually kept at an
unconcious level)is common for most people though it
can ofcourse cause mild, or serious psychological
problems for some.
1. Repeated Psychic "Assaults".
As a child when I was asleep I would on a few
occassions become "aware" of my body at a subnormal
level of conciousnes. I then experienced electricity
around the back of my neck. Similiarly, the same
energy could be had around the base of the heels. If I
recall rightly in the book Shadow of Destiny by the
controversial Alexander Cannon this was the start of
what might be termed attempted "possession" but in my
case it was technically speaking repeated psychic
"assaults".
Anyway, in the darkness I would feel something on top
of me, and it was grabbing my throat, and strangled
me. When this appalling experience reached that climax
I lost "awareness". Then,I would wake up in bed to my
normal waking conciousness.
2. Past Lives?
The above may be a repeated repressed memory at the
end of a previous life if we accept reincarnation. I
believe that the following experience is an instance
of another existence.
It occured at a subnormal level of "conciousness" to
some extent. I was on a stoney beach in France, and I
was a soldier. Troops were near me, and one had a
bazooker. I could see the cliffs, and a pill box with
a rifle sticking out, and pointing downwards. For some
reason or other I moved foolishly away from the
troops, and became an easy target. A shot was heard,
and entered my stomach. I fell backwards clutching it.
Interestingly, the full pain, and suffering of the
experience seemed to be blocked by the mind. Yet, I
awoke from this "memory" which was like a replay of
some vague grainy black, and white film. It was more
of a tactile experience rather than a clear visual
phenomenon. Anyway,I was still clutching my belly, and
writhing about in my pyjamas! I also felt myself
several times being inside, and outside the body. In
other words, an out-of-the-body (or OOBE)experience of
which I had a number of spontaneous occurences but
again at a subnormal level of conciousness (eg.
rolling in, and out of bed but not physically so!).
Strange as it may appear I discovered that the death
trauma memory had in World War II ofcourse occured
with other living individuals. It appears that many of
those who died were reborn quickly so that they could
be karmically "rewarded" by experiencing a "better"
life presumably in the rich countries such as Britain,
America, and Europe. Their "self-sacrifice" was not in
vain.
I believe I had another experience of seeing "myself"
in a past life. I must stress this is only a theory,
and could be completely wrong. It occured in a lucid
dream (ie.I was aware I was I "dreaming"). I was in
bed as a child, and next to me I saw a man lying by
me. His eyes were wide with amazement, and he
fearfully tried to touch my face with his
hand....whereupon I blacked out, and returned to
normal waking conciousness.
What was extraordinary was his appearance. He had a
wide ruddy face, and white dirty bedraggled hair. He
had a fur collar band, and on his arm he had a blue
(woad)design. Could this have been "me" in some far
off incarnation, or was it someone, or something else?
From the description he was probably an Ancient Briton
even though I knew next to naught about that subject
but I did develop an intense interest in history
later.Also, it should be added that I saw a strip of
silver light (astral light of occultism?)along the
side of his muscled frame. If I recall correctly Joan
Forman mentions something similiar in her book
entitled The Mask of Time in connection with
"time-slips".
Another instance at a rather lower level of subnormal
conciousness than usual was a "visitation" of a monk
whose face I dared not look at. He had a wooden bowl
in which he dipped his finger to make the sign of the
cross on my forehead! I did not really understand the
full significance of this at the time. Could this have
been "me" in a previous incarnation as a medieval monk
possibly?
There is much in psychic literature about
reincarnation. The subject is vast.
3. The Windsor Apparition.
Ghosts have been reported all over the world. Evidence
seems to suggest that most of them are probably
replays of minor, or major happenings of the past.
Usually, they are of a tragic nature. Strong negative
emotions seem to impose themselves most easily onto
the ether unlike positive uplifting ones.
My own personal experience occured in around 1968 in a
house which had just been built in Windsor, Berkshire
in England. I awoke one night, and felt an unnatural
clammy coldness even though it was very still summer
night. At the bottom of my bed I saw the form of a man
dressed in Victorian garb (a "vagrant"). He looked
perfectly solid. I froze with terror, and just stared
at him.
The "phantom" or whatever it was merely stood totally
stationary for a short while. He was dressed in a
large brown shabby overcoat that looked a bit dusty.
He had a matching top-hat, and the shade of its rim
covered his eyes. He seemed to have a scarf around his
neck. Quite mechanically his large form turned around,
and displayed a suprising array of different coloured
patches on the back of his coat. At the same time,I
could hear the crackle of electricity. This was a low
sound but it was distinct.
Slowly, but surely he moved towards the corner of the
room. As he started to gently fade away into the night
(quite literally!) I noted that parts of the furthest
edge of his coat were vibrating furiously, and then,
disappearing. Here, I stress the word "parts" as the
whole form did not become a vibrating mass of
energy..and then, dematerialize. This, along with the
crackling of electricity as he turned plus the initial
clammy coldness indicate that such phenomenon have
some kind of mechanics yet to be comprehended by
science.
I have to admit too that on very rare occassions I
sometimes saw the static outline of figures. Whether
this was purely a trick of the mind is impossible to
say with certainty. They seemed to be aborted
materializations.
In one instance of a similiar phenomenon, I saw the
shadow silhouette of a profile of a mans face at the
bottom of my bedroom door. It could have come from the
light outside but there was no one there! Moreover, it
was totally still, and seemingly inexplicable.
Ofcourse, none of this compares with the materialized
phantom I saw so many moons ago...
Morever, this "phantom" was not some replay from the
past but rather an "astral shell" I witnessed. In
other words, there was no intelligent life in it as we
would understand it.
There is a strange footnote to this spectral
materialization. I experienced the same clammy
coldness (acting as a warning?)twice just before I saw
two fatal road accidents. The most horrendous of which
was the one up in the mountains of the Pyrennees in
Spain. In my parents car I saw a huge lorry which was
about to tip over the edge of a cliff. A vehicle had
rammed into it, and a man in a white shirt hung out
of it covered in blood. A priest was present
presumably giving the last rites. A woman who was
pinned into the back seat next to the dead man was
understandably hysterical. A man in a suit lay on the
road but no obvious trace of blood but I knew he was
dead. After I saw all that I stuck my head out of my
parents car, and vomited. No child, or adult should
have to see something like that.
4. A Psychic "Lightning Bolt".
This experience such as it can be called is perhaps
the most fantastical (1979). It commenced in a lucid
dream in which I was aware of being next to a Church
in Windsor. I saw in the seeming darkness around me a
harp which was making discordant sounds due to "wind"
(like an Aeolian harp). Then, I looked up, and could
hear the peels of thunder, and lightning. Suddenly, I
realized that that I had become the target for it. The
ligtning bolt struck me, and I awoke in bed. I was
lying on my side, and noticed a flame-like aura along
my body. The bedroom was half lit up by the orange
"lightning-flash".In seconds, it, and the aura (which
did not surround my body but just the side of
it!)disappeared leaving me astonished.
What on earth was all this about? I believe that
someone, or something was wanting to help me to
experience certain future trials, and tribulations. In
other words, it was a sudden transmission of healing
energy to enable, and empower me to face serious
problems. The orange aura is indicative of a force
emanating from my vital (or health)body.
I have to confess that on rare occassions in my early
childhood I sometimes experienced energy quickly shoot
through my "physical" body. On occassions, I would
jolt up in the air. Apparently, this may be caused by
the astral body returning to the physical body rather
quickly!
5. Psychic Healing.
It is claimed that everyone is able to develop psychic
healing if they wish. I recall once taking a friend to
the house of a famous medium on the Isle of
Wight(1979). I remember the whole room was saturated
with energy, and as I concentrated my mind on the
Third Eye the power also centred itself "there!"
However, I, myself had a healing which came quite
unbidden. I was seated with two Sikh friends who
belonged to Eckankar which drew its inspiration mainly
from Surat Shabd Yoga but mixed it up with other
techniques. I was in a very relaxed state of mind, and
I felt myself going into a light waking trance. At the
same time, I, and my companions were listening to a
tape by the controversial Paul Twitchell who was
talking about healing, and being healed! I also became
aware of what might best be termed very subtle
energies going through me in a most gentle manner.
After a short while I came out of this trance, and I
looked at one of my Sikh friends who thereupon said
"You should say thank you." Clearly, he knew what had
happened.
Though not related to healing I also had an experience
of the Eck Master Darwin Gross. I recall seeing a
photo of him printed in a book produced by Eckankar.
As I concentrated on it I could full distinct
vibrations! Whether this was a trick of the mind, or
not is an open question.
6.Synchronicity.
Many people have experienced synchronicity, or
meaningful coincidences. I have two interesting
examples though I have had many others of a less
"extraordinary" nature. Odd as it may seem they were
both connected with where I was living
(1977-1990)which was Stoke Poges, a very posh area
just outside Slough.
In around 1989 I was making enquiries about possibly
interviewing Ma Yogashakti a female guru for Yoga, and
Healing magazine (which was later published with
photographic material). My contact was with someone
who worked at the School of Oriental, and African
Studies at the University of London. She supplied me
with much useful information, and asked me where I
lived. I said Stoke Poges, and she claimed she used to
live in Chesham which was fairly nearby. However, it
also transpired that she actually had relatives at the
Orchard (built in the Edwardian age)which was the
house I was living in with mater, and pater!
Apparently, as a child she used to stay (or possibly
lived there if my memory serves me well!)there, and as
proof of these claims she did some photocopies of old
photographs from her family albums. This showed the
Orchard as it was in the early part of the 20th
Century. If I recall rightly, she made the claim that
this big house was also originally the place for high
ranking military people from British India to stay
temporarily when on leave.
The other "meaningful" coincidence involved a
telephone conversation from someone from a
metaphysical society. He claimed he could hear inner
psychic sounds at a distance, and they reminded him of
the poem by Thomas Grey known as the Elegy. I was
amazed by this because he did not know that I was
calling from Stoke Poges which was the place where it
was actually written! Indeed, there is an actual
monument to the Elegy near to the Church where Thomas
Grey is buried.
Such experiences are common especially in case of
those concerned with the search for Truth. They appear
to clearly show that the universe at some level is
interconnected into a Whole, and that we, ourselves
ofcourse are a part of It. Indeed, they also suggest
that there is something guiding our lives.
In the world of the psychic, and infact, the spiritual
there are various "guides" of one sort, or another. I
remember a long time ago waking up, and just recalled
in a "dream" a mist which seemed to be flattened in
part so that strange writing magically appeared by
itself. The script may have been Hebrew but it is not
possible to say for certain. I heard a voice from the
right of me saying that bad actions are good because
they could lead to good ones, or words to that effect!
In other words, learning via experience which we all
do. This may have been some kind of contact with a
guide of some degree, or possibly a trick of the mind.
However, this experience seemed real enough, and
happened very quickly as I got the impression that I
was not meant to be conciously aware of it.
The above experiences in this essay are just examples
which appear to suggest that there is something more
to life. Yet, no doubt, there are many who may read
this who may have had more interesting, and
extraordinary happenings. Such material appears in
internet forums, specialist magazines, and/or goes
into biographies, and autobiographies of mediums, and
other "psychic" notables such as Derek Acorah, and Uri
Geller. It is hard to see how sceptics continue to
pooh pooh such annecdotal evidence, and its
commonality when it should be clear to anyone that
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
than are dreamt of in your philosophy...." to use the
classic Shakespearean line.
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